Great things take time.
I could get struck by lightning and it still wouldn’t hurt as bad as my heart.
There are a lot of things I haven’t learned
But the one thing I wish I had been taught
Is how to stop loving someone once they’ve gone away
I miss you. And I swear, the next time I see you, I’m going to kiss you so hard you forget who’s air you’re breathing and you’ll taste my name on your lips for months.
I can’t do this anymore. I’m tired and I’m weak and I’m hurt. You keep hurting me and I keep letting you hurt me. And I’m sick of it. I’m sick of waiting for you to realise you love me because in all honesty I want nothing from you anymore. Leave me alone. I’m serious now. Before I would say it so you wouldn’t leave me alone, because we all know how you love to do the exact opposite of what you say. Now I’m serious. Stay away from me. Stay away from my friends. Keep your friends away from me. Stop getting them to check up on me.
It’s funny how I only realise how much I hate you just now. And I do. I fucking hate you. There is no love left in me for you. And there may never be again. I want out. Let me go.
There used to be a time when you loved me. And I know you did. But that doesn’t exist anymore. The person I loved doesn’t exist anymore. Whoever you are now is a person I don’t want to be around. I hate who you’ve become. You lie and you cheat and you manipulate and you break people and you don’t care. And I’m tired of caring about someone that just wants to destroy me. They say destroy the thing that destroys you. And honey I think you’ve destroyed me enough for a lifetime. It’s your turn now. I’ve never been a vengeful, spiteful bitch, but I’m done playing nice. You wanna play? Let’s play. This is a game I intend to win. I’m done.
I’ve been drowning myself for far too long. Now you’re drowning in me and you can’t deal with it, so you’re pushing me away and hurting me to get me out of your mind. Keep drowning asshole. It’s time I learned how to swim.
I will make myself numb. I don’t want emotions nor feelings. I don’t want to care or love or miss again. And I won’t anymore. I will destroy every shade of love and care and longing and sadness and happiness. I will turn my feelings off. Forever.